The Sun You Seek

Chapter 2

Duo packed his things, Relena had long since gone. Only Heero and Hilde remained in the house with him, only giving him a chance to pack his things and leave. They were in the kitchen, he could hear Hide talking to Heero quietly. She was crying. It hurt him to know how much pain he’d caused her, and he knew that she was right about breaking up with her. She would have let him go if she had known that Relena made him happy. And now she was in pain, in more pain than she would have been if she’d know about it ‘God, I’m an idiot! How am I going to fix this?’ he thought. He zipped the last of his bags. He’d taken everything, from his clothes to his toothbrush. Hopefully he had packed everything. He walked into the hall, Hilde’s voice getting a little bit louder as he approached her location.

“... am I.... to do... problems with.... I didn’t know.” He heard bits and pieces of their conversation. She was sitting in a chair with a cup of tea, he guessed. Heero didn’t drink coffee. He looked at her and Heero, he had his hand over hers, a sign of comfort. Duo shook his head. ‘What did I do?’

He cleared his throat to get their attention. Hilde raised pained eyes to his direction. They were red and puffy from the crying she had done for the last few hours. She put her hands on her face. Something on her hand caught her attention. She pulled the diamond solitaire ring on her left ring finger and place it on the table in front of her. “Take that with you,” she said hoarsely. Heero didn’t say anything to him, he didn’t even look.

Duo walked the few paces between himself and the table and reached for the ring. He put it in his pocket. “I’m sorry,” he said quietly.

“Don’t say anything,” said Heero, speaking for the first time. “And tell Relena to get all her shit from MY apartment. I don’t want to find ANYTHING that is hers when I get there.”

Still crying, Hilde got up and opened the front door. “Leave.” She was holding the door wide open, he could see all the tears that would fall once he was gone. He had already put the suitcases and boxes in his care earlier, the only one that remained was the one already in his hands. He walked to the door, his eyes pleading with Hilde for... for something. He didn’t know what...

He glanced back at the door when he was backing out of the drive way. Heero was there, holding a crying Hilde. She had her arms around his waist and her head was buried in the material of his shirt against his shoulder. Duo clenched his jaw and drove away.

“What did I do wrong, Heero? He should have told me, instead of going behind my back!” cried Hilde.

Heero closed the door of the house. He put his arm around Hilde’s shaking shoulders. “I don’t know...” he whispered. “I don’t know... I don’t know...” he said again.

“What am I going to do, Heero? My world practically revolved around him!”

“Live to learn without him, just like I will learn to live without Relena.” He laughed a little, but with no humor. “This is what I was most afraid of, Hilde. This is the situation that I never wanted to find myself in. And that’s why I didn’t want to love her! And this is precisely why I will never let anyone close to me again. I don’t want to be hurt.”

“I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to love anyone as much as I love him, but I’m not going to say that I won’t take the chance to love again. I want... I don’t even know what I want anymore. I won’t let him destroy me...”

“I need a drink,” said Heero. “Come on.”

With that, Heero took Hilde to a bar where they both proceeded to get fucked up. They were driven to Hilde’s home by a cab the bartender had called for them.

tbc...

AN: right... okay nothing happening yet, but hold on!