Ha! I like my title! Get it?
Seren-ade? ha ha ha.........anywho.....
I have to admit I loved writing this
chapter. I wanted something fun to balance out the tune of redemption for
Kagome, Sess and Naraku. I wanted to show that although he is constantly
haunted by her absence, Kagome's presence in his life has changed things for
the better. Let's take a peek at how this same day starts out for Inuyasha. And
yes, this is right after Miroku and Sango's quickie...tehe...
Hope you like!
Ja ne!
~Sabichan~
**I POV**
I perked up my head as I heard the
water begin to boil. I jumped up and rushed to the stove, quickly pouring into
the waiting cup of Ramen. I closed the lid and carefully carried it back to the
table. I sighed when I realized how routine this had become for me. I started
to wish I'd asked my mother to teach me how to cook before she moved out. Then
I started to wish I'd asked Kagome long before that.
I did my best to shake the thoughts
out of my head as I started to eat breakfast. But as usual, the girl won out.
I had dreamt about her again last
night. One of the really good ones. So good, it would have made Miroku blush.
I smirked at that thought. I had
long gotten over my embarrassment about my sexual attraction to her. It was all
a part of why I loved her. She was gorgeous, and every day I dreamed about
telling her that again. I wanted to run my hands over her body once more, to
feel her writhing on top of me, to kiss her and hold her again. I never ceased
to wonder how far we would have gone if Warui hadn't showed up.
Even though I certainly wouldn't
have forced her into doing anything she didn't want to, I sure as hell wouldn't
have said no. I wouldn't have stopped unless she stopped me. I would have made
love to her right there on the grass beneath the God Tree.
That of course had been my dream
last night.
Laying her down ever so gently,
silently questioning if she was sure. She would nod softly, a faint blush
gracing her cheeks and would kiss me as she arched her back to unzip her dress.
Then, slowly I would slide the strap off her shoulder, following each inch with
a burning kiss. Then the other, until finally-
>Ring!<
"Goddammit!!" I yelled, as
the hot water burned my hand when I jumped. I wiped it off as I stood to get
the phone, mumbling a few curses along the way.
"What?"
"Did you burn yourself again
honey?" I rolled my eyes.
"No, Faye."
"Liar. Sweetie, you don't have
to come in today. We're closing the restaurant for a few days-it just way too
dusty to serve food here. The renovation is almost done so we just have to make
a little sacrifice."
"Oh...Okay." I felt my
heart sink at this. Now what was I going to do today? I didn't start work at
the mail room till four. And it was only 8:30 now. She must have heard the
disappointment in my voice.
"You can come help Mushin wash
his car if you want. Or help me teach Shippo math. He's not doing very well
with it."
"Keh! You baby him too much,
Faye, he's just doing bad to get attention. Trust me I've seen him do
geometry."
"What? SHIPPO!!" I had to
hold the phone away from my ear when she yelled. Oops...got the little brat in
trouble...
"Um, gotta go Faye, thanks
bye." I hung up quickly and stepped away from the phone. I walked back to
the kitchen and sat back down. I ate quickly, and thought about what I could do
to fill up my day.
After I cleaned up the mess I had
made from boiling water, I grabbed my guitar from my room.
I'd started a few weeks after Kagome
left. It just seemed like something I could do to pass the time, and I'd always
wanted to learn to play something. It had been hard at first, and I'd almost
given up.
But after one day of not playing, I
felt kind of empty...well more empty than usual.
So I'd started again, and had gotten
pretty good since.
I sat down on the front couch and
started to strum out a few chords. Playing always helped me focus better,
helped me think just a little more clearly. Of course, having the one track
mind that I do, I usually only thought about one thing, or person for that
matter.
Her birthday had passed just last
month-she was 21 now. Hitomi had invited us all to dinner at her home that
night, to hold a mock party for her missing daughter. We had spent the night
talking about her, reminiscing about how she'd changed each of our lives. I
listened rather than spoke-if they were to even get me started about how Kagome
had changed me, we would've been there all night.
Sango missed her terribly. I
couldn't blame her of course. She'd never really had any close friends other
than Miro and me. And even though the two had finally given into the sexual
tension that always seemed to surround them, she still felt like something was
missing. It really wasn't all that hard to figure out just what that was.
Hitomi was taking it rather well. I
found a lot of comfort in her and Souta...even the old man sometimes. They
almost seemed to know something I didn't. About a month ago, I finally caved in
and asked why the hell they were so fucking calm about the whole damn
thing...well I worded it differently...
Hitomi had just smiled and given me
a big hug, which I readily accepted.
"I have shed tears for
my daughter, like any mother would. But not nearly as many as you would expect.
I am calm, and I understand this readily, because I know my daughter. I know
her almost too well. Kagome left for her own reasons, not just one, but many. If
anything, I was almost waiting for this to happen. She's been restless since
her friends left, itching to see what they were experiencing. But she chose to
stay here with us, her family. Inuyasha, even if I had known she was going to
leave, I would not have stopped her. She needs this. I know...I know you love
my daughter, and that all you wanted to do was make her happy. You have to
understand, that if that's what you really want for her, than you have to let
her go. I can't say that she's happy with the choice she's made, but I know she
had to do this.
"I do my best though, to
be content with hoping she is happy. Just like any mother would. But I know
something, something about her that brings me peace. I know she is bound to
this shrine, every aspect of it from the old well to the Goshinboku-this is her
home and she will never be able to leave it behind. I know my daughter will
see, and that she will come home. And I will be here waiting for her with open
arms and an open heart, no matter how long it takes."
Her words had helped me through some
of my loneliest nights. Just the thought, the mere hope that someday I would
see her sweet face again...
Since the night of her birthday, I'd
done my best to think more "When" and less "If". Kagome was
going to come back. I would wait as long as I had to, my whole life if that was
what she needed. And the moment she came back, I would take her in my arms and
never let her go ever, ever again. I was going to give her the Shikon no Tama
once more, and by the Gods there was no way I was going to let her give it
back.
I was going to marry her, spend the
rest of my life with her, and die with her.
My life was hers...she had only to
come home to claim it.
The others hadn't understood why I
had refused to change along with them. Why I had chosen to stay in the same
apartment on my own, to work the same jobs at the same times and take the same
bus each morning. I wasn't even sure sometimes. It wasn't like I couldn't
afford not to work or get a car. I actually didn't have to worry about money
ever again now that Sess was home. But I couldn't live my life off of his
success. No, I had to learn to be independent, just like Kagome was doing right
now.
It was far more lonely though, not
having my mother around. Since she'd moved in with Naraku, things had been even
more quiet. That is, except when Miro and Sango were here. Which was quite
often. I was grateful that they kept the cutesy lovey-dovey act to a minimum around
me. But I had to admit I was truly happy for them. Like I had said before, it
was nice to see someone get it right.
When they weren't around though,
that's when things got a little harder. With no distractions, my thoughts would
consume me, turn against me. I would start to tell myself that she wasn't ever
going to come back, that I had screwed up royally. That she would never forgive
me for Kikyo, that she was disgusted by me for being so weak. My thoughts
sometimes leaned to the day after she'd left, when I had gone to the graveyard
to kill myself...what would she think of me? Would she hate me if she found
out?
Then sometimes, my hand would go to
the scar on my chest and I would wonder...maybe I had been on the right track. Maybe
I should have just done it, gotten it over with, and let go of all this pain.
Maybe....
No.
No, that wasn't right. I had to just
keep waiting, keep hoping.
I would see her again someday.
Until then, I had my memories, more
precious than Sess and Naraku's fortune, more precious than the Shikon no Tama
itself.
I thought again about the legend of
the Miko and the Half-Demon. There were those same parallels again between me
and Kagome. Only this time, our roles were reversed. Instead of searching for a
way to become a man, Kagome was finding her way to becoming a woman. And me? I
was here waiting, ever vigilant, for her return. Only this time, this was going
to end differently. There would be no twist, no one to come between us, no
tragic ending.
This time, we were going to live happily
ever after, no matter how long that took.
I finally realized I was singing
softly as I continued to strum the guitar. I smiled at my own actions. I'd
never been much of a singer, never really cared much for my own rough voice. But
I didn't stop, I just let it happen. I played the song that I hadn't yet been
able to get out of my head for over a year, the one Kagome had sung to me on
her birthday.
I didn't hear the door open behind
me, or the footsteps that followed. My eyes were closed and I was focused on
the song pouring out of me. As I played the last chord, I heard applause. I
jerked around in shock and blushed when I saw the petite girl standing next to
me.
"Inu! I didn't know you could
sing!"
"You know, there's a door there
for reason. It's supposed to stop people from coming inside
uninvited."
"Don't talk to your sister like
that. wow...I never thought I'd hear myself say that."
Rin walked over and sat down next to
me, her eyes ever playful.
"Well I was going to
knock, but I heard this angelic little voice from out in the hallway, and I
couldn't help but be curious. And here you are-I've never heard you sing
before. You have a wonderful voice."
"Feh." I muttered, still a
little embarrassed about being caught.
"No I mean that! Then again, it
guess it does run in your family. Does that mean Sesshie can sing too? He never
sang to me either. You two are just too stingy!" She pretended to pout and
I couldn't help but laugh at the thought of Sess singing. Her eyes brightened
and then flashed hopefully.
"Could you sing some more.. for
me?"
"What?!"
"Oh come on! What's one more
little song for your big sister? I won't tell anybody about your pretty
voice...or I will if you refuse. Either way, you don't have much a choice now
do you?"
"Rin, how the hell do you do
that? You always know just how to get your way. I can't understand how Sess can
stand you." She shrugged.
"He likes to be controlled. He
just doesn't realize it."
"So what if I tell him
that?"
"HA! Like he's gonna believe
you over me? I have a lot more credibility and more ways of ...persuasion."
I shivered in disgust. I knew just
what she meant by that...
"Oh Gods, don't ever say that
again! It's bad enough I had to walk in on that! What's wrong with you two,
you're like rabbits or something!"
"We're perfect for each other,
and that's that. Don't act like you wouldn't be the same if Kagome were
here."
My eyes darkened at her words and
she gasped and bit her lip nervously, realizing what she'd just let slip. She
reached out to take my hand, squeezing it tightly.
"I'm sorry Inu, that was uncalled
for. I...Gods, I'm such an idiot."
I hated to see her upset. After
all...she was right. I smiled and shook my head dismissively.
"Don't feel bad. At least
someone doesn't tiptoe around the subject with me. Besides, I'm used to your
big mouth." She grinned mischievously as her eyes darted from my guitar
and back.
"Which will be ready to spill
many things about your cute little voice if you don't make with the
singing."
"Rin, you're such a
bitch." I groaned.
"And a one, and a two!" She
clapped in time. I sighed and gave up. She was impossible to argue
with. No wonder Sess was always all
over her-it was the only time he ever got to be in charge.
I thought about what to sing. I
didn't know too many songs just yet, mostly just a lot of oldies with simple
melodies.
I closed my eyes suddenly as it came
to me-the perfect song. I strummed the strings softly as Rin let out a girlish
squeal.
Concentrating, I began to sing.
Bus stop, wet day, She's
there, I say
Please share my umbrella
Bus stop, bus goes, she stays, love
grows
Under my umbrella
All that summer we enjoyed it, wind
and rain and shine
That umbrella we employed it, by
august she was mine
Every morning I would see her
waiting at the stop
Sometimes she'd shopped and
she would show me what she'd bought
All the people stared as if we were
both quite insane
Someday my name and hers are going
to be the same
That's the way the whole
thing started
Silly but it's true
Thinking of a sweet romance
Beginning in a queue
Came the sun, the ice was melting
No more sheltering now
Nice to think that that umbrella
Led me to a vow
Every morning I would see her
waiting at the stop
Sometimes she'd shopped and
she would show me what she'd bought
All the people stared as if we were
both quite insane
Someday my name and hers are going
to the same
Bus stop, Wet day, she's
there, I say
Please share my umbrella
Bus stop, bus goes, she stays, love
grows