Exciting huh?
Told ya it'd get
better. Now let's see what happens...uh oh...wait a sec...
Isn't Kagome on
her way home right now??
This can't be
good...
Is it so wrong
for me to love you
After all that
i've been through
I deserve a
little sin
I choose my sin
as loving you...
**I POV**
"What...What
are you doing here?" I asked in the shakiest voice I'd ever heard
come out of me.
She smiled, and
that frankly scared the shit out of me.
"I could ask
you the very same question, Inuyasha."
She walked over
to me slowly, languidly. The look in her eyes was undecipherable. I just stared
as she sat down next to me.
"It's been a
long time hasn't it? I thought I would never get to see your sweet face again,
Inuyasha. You don't know how happy I am."
I still stared,
not really sure of how I should react to what she was saying.
"Well aren't
you going to tell me you missed me too?"
"Ki-Kikyo...what
happened to you?"
She looked the
same alright, her hair a little shorter than I remembered. The same brown eyes,
same ivory skin. She looked older, though. Almost tired.
"I wouldn't
know where to begin, Inu. So much has happened since our time together. How
long has it been?"
"Almost five
years."
She sighed
wistfully and looked up at the sky through the branches of the God tree.
"I'm sorry
Inuyasha."
"Huh?"
"I'm sorry
for everything. I must be such a bad memory for you. I only hope I didn't
damage you in any way. But I was alone, and you were so... alive. You were such
a comfort, but I took that too far. You were so young-you still are. You've
grown up wonderfully, though. I always knew you would."
"Thanks...Um...Kikyo...didn't
you get married?" She nodded and looked back at me.
"Yes, for a
short time. Only a few months. But he wasn't the mad he'd made himself out to
be. He hit me, he yelled, so I left."
"I...I
thought I'd never see you again." I admitted. Her eyes warmed
significantly at my words.
"So you did
miss me?"
"I-"
Suddenly she cast her eyes to the ground.
"Don't
answer that. I don't deserve to hear you say yes. Not after what I did to you. How
can you bear to even look at me? After I took advantage of you like
that? What kind of woman am I?"
She began to cry
softly. I shifted uncomfortably, not really knowing how to comfort her. Something
about the thought of touching her...just didn't sit too well with me.
"You didn't
scar me for life or anything. I'm alright. I forgave you a long time ago, right
after you left with him. I never got to tell you. No matter what happened
between us, you... you were there when I needed someone. It's not fair for me
to forget that."
I took her hand
gently and she gave it a light squeeze.
"Oh, Inu.
Nothing has gone right in my life. I'm washed up. I married again, and he left.
But he took everything I had, all my money from my savings, my car. Everything.
So I came back here to get on my feet again. It is good to be home."
Suddenly I
realized what she was saying. She had lived here?
"Kikyo?
How...This was your home?"
"Yes, my
sister in law lives here, as does my father. It's his shrine. My brother died
some time ago. It's hard being around here, with all these memories, knowing
Seikai is dead."
My blood froze in
my veins. My mouth dropped open and my eyes went wide, but she didn't notice
and continued to talk.
"Though it
is good to see my niece and nephew again. Such good kids. Almost make me wish
I'd had a child of my own. But I was never meant to be a mother. I'm fine with
my place now. Souta, he's a wonderful boy, so respectful, and helpful. No
wonder my father dotes on him so. And Kagome, why she looks so much like her
father! She is most certainly my brother's daughter. You should meet her. She's
about your age-twenty I think. Inu?"
She looked at me,
concern apparent in her eyes. Then it dawned on her just what I was doing here.
She lowered her
eyes to our joined hands, rubbing her thumb over my fingers.
"Hitomi said
she was having some boy trouble. I'd never imagined in a million years it would
be you. But somehow Fate has managed to throw us back together. How strange,
for my niece to be in love with you, just like her aunt was." If it were
at all possible, I was shocked once again.
"Wait..
You...loved me? But you said-"
"I said a
lot of things I didn't mean, Inu. But I never said the one thing I did. I was
in love with you, so much, but deep inside, I knew it was so wrong. What I was
doing to you was unforgivable-and me, a former miko, should have known better. But
I couldn't help myself. You were my weakness.
Inuyasha-I've
never stopped thinking about you."
She suddenly took
both of my hands and moved closer to me.
"Ki-"
Her eyes were pleading then, her voice desperate and shaky.
"Please
let me tell you! I've waited so long, and this, it's my only chance to say what
I've always wanted to say to you. Every other man I've been with, they were
nothing compared to you! Even though you were so young, you were everything I'd
ever wanted. You still are. Oh Inuyasha, please give me another chance!"
Before I could
even think about moving, she had pressed her lips to mine, tears still
streaming down her face.
I was frozen. My
body just would not move, I was in such a state of shock. I just stared wide
eyed at the woman kissing me, entirely repulsed by her touch. It was at that
moment that I heard footsteps coming towards us.
Not half a second
later, Kagome walked around the corner of the house, smiling warmly, eyes lit
in happiness.
It promptly faded
when she saw what was happening right in front of her. I pushed Kikyo away
quickly, but it was too late. Kagome had seen, and was already slowly backing
away. I could see the tears fill her eyes as I stood up and opened my mouth to
try to explain.
Nothing came out.
I had no idea where to even begin.
She noticed my hesitation
and quickly turned on her heel, and ran back around the corner. A moment later
I heard the sliding door to her kitchen open and slam shut.
"Inuyasha?
Are you alright?"
I lowered my
head, closing my eyes and clenching my fist tightly. I began to laugh, low and
bitter.
"Am...Am I alright?!
That's all you have to say?! Am I alright?!" I turned sharply and she
winced as I began to yell with a rage I'd only felt when I had seen Kouga on
top on Kagome that fateful night.
"No I am not
fucking 'alright'! You bitch, do you even realize what you did?! Can't
you understand what you've just done?! She...Kagome...S-She saw...I can't
believe this is happening..." I buried my face in my hands, and my
knees threatened to give out. She reached out to touch me, but I slapped her
hand away.
"NO...Don't
you ever touch me again...You've ruined my life enough as it is....I
can't believe you would do this to me..."
"Inu,
I...I'm sorry...I don't know what came over me...it's just...I...I love-"
I shook my head violently, cutting her off.
"Don't say
that....Don't you ever tell me that again. You...you've ruined everything...You
were the biggest mistake of my life... Don't...."
Before she could
say another word, I turned and walked away. She called after me, but I hardly
noticed. I walked straight into the house, up the stairs, past a gaping Souta,
and to Kagome's door.
I could hear her
sobbing inside.
"Kagome.
Please open the door. Please let me-"
"FUCK
OFF!"
I winced. She
sure had a voice on her.
"Kagome,
please you have to let me explain...It's not what you think, and-"
"I said, FUCK
OFF! I don't want to hear another word from you as long as I live. I HATE
you!"
It stung. It
really did. But I didn't let it deter me. I wasn't going to leave that spot
until I'd had my say.
"I'm not
leaving until you listen to me. You have to let me explain. Please, let me
in."
"NO."
"Please,
I-"
"NO!"
"Kag-"
"NO!!"
My patience ran
out and I jerked the doorknob.
"Kagome you open this door or I break it down! I'm not
leaving until you listen to me!!"
It was silent for a moment, then I heard footsteps. I sighed in
relief when I heard her unlock the door.
She flung open the door, looking as if all Hell were in her eyes.
She was so beautiful...I hadn't seen her in so long. I had to
fight the urge to rush forward and just take her in my arms.
"Come in." She said flatly. I stepped in the room and
she slammed the door behind me. Then she pointed at her bed.
"Sit."
I sat. She just
stood before me, arms crossed, eyes red and brimming with unshed tears.
I took a deep
breath and looked at my hands. She was making me even more nervous just staring
at me.
"Please,
come here."
"Talk."
I looked up at
her. Under all the anger and sadness, I could see a slight glimmer of what I
could only guess was hope. She hoping above all else that this was all just
another misunderstanding, and that I would give her the explanation that would
solve everything. Unfortunately, deep down inside I knew that what I was about
to tell her would only make things much, much worse.
Nevertheless, she
needed to know.
Everything.
Well as it turns
out...
Tbc…
I am
Evil!!