Hey Minna! Thanks agiain for the wonderful reviews, you guys are so awesome!

And I have to admit, I love when you guys ramble! Makes the reviews just so much more personal, and I feel so love-ed!

Ok, I know no one wanted to say it, but I know the past few chapters seemed like they were just a lot of filler, but it was necessary to show you what they're both going through being away from each other. Poor kids...I put them through so much hell don't I?

Well, you ain't seen nothing yet!

Within the next five or six chapters, you're all gonna be exploding like our good friend Soranji.

Five or six seem like a long time from now?

Did I happen to mention I'm putting up three or even four tonight?

You love me...admit it XP

So here we go, and I hope you like!

Ja Ne!

~Sabichan~

You have found her, now go and get her

Remember to let her into your heart

Then you can start to make it better

**K POV**

I sat under the God tree, gazing at the empty seat beside me. It had been a month since I had talked to Inuyasha. A whole fucking month.

My sigh was lost on the breeze as it blew around me, ruffling my bangs. My eyes did not waver from the void beside me.

Everyday since my birthday, I had been drawn to this same spot, and here I would sit for hours at a time.

"What have I done?"

Inside I begged the Gods, the Earth itself for some kind of reply. All I got was silence, crushing silence.

I had been so close, right on the very threshold of a new life. Inuyasha's kiss had opened that door; and had Kouga never showed up, I would have stepped through it, with no hesitation in my heart.

But here I sat alone, just like I would always be. Alone, because there would be no other for me. No matter what I would do, who I would try to love, no one could fill the void that stayed by my side truer than my own shadow. No one could ever take his place.

I vaguely noticed I was crying again. I closed my eyes and imagined that night like I had so many times before. I pictured myself holding him tight, my lips pressed firmly to his. I could see myself pulling away and looking deep into his eyes. I imagined myself saying the words I should have said so long ago, something I had felt long before I had ever realized it.

"I love you"

Ever since the first day we had met, something inside me had changed. Those ten minutes we had spent standing in the rain, sharing an umbrella-those precious seconds had been the turning point of my entire life.

Not my 18th birthday, not even my 20th! No-it was that gloomy day, when golden eyes had first looked into mine.

I fell for him right then and there.

All those days we had spent together at the bus stop. Each one had made had made the strange new feelings grow stronger, but no matter how the emotions confused me, I was never afraid of them. They were for Inuyasha, and therefore, they could be trusted. Just like him.

But that didn't matter now.

My chance in life to be truly happy was gone. I had pushed him away when I should have pulled him close.

I had kicked the only man I'd ever loved in my entire life right out of it. And I only had myself to blame.

`He would never forgive me...'

The thought only brought more tears to my eyes. He was gone, out of my reach. I didn't even deserve to see him again. What I had done was unforgivable.

"'Gome?"

I heard Sango's voice in the distance, coming my way. I had almost forgotten she was coming over.

"I'm here." I called half-heartedly. It wasn't that I didn't want her to be there. It was just that I hated people seeing me cry-and that was something she had seen far too often in our barely blooming friendship.

She came around the corner of the house and into my view.

"Sorry I'm late, babe. Had an errand to run."

"Liar."

She winced at the name, though it lacked any malice. It was just that I knew full well where she had been. True, I had been the one to ask her not to talk about Inuyasha in front of me...but still.

"Yeah. Are you mad?" She asked somewhat timidly.

"No. I have no right. You guys are friends too, long before I ever came to wreck things."

"Stop saying that. You didn't `wreck things', `Gome."

"So then how is he?"

She froze and I could see the look of indecision cross her expressive face. She wasn't sure whether or not to tell me the truth.

"And don't lie to me, Sango."

She threw her hands up in defeat and sat down next to me.

"You're such a bitch. You always know...He's, well. He's not so great. He misses you, Kagome."

"Right..."

"He does! You should see how miserable he is without you! You have to talk to him at least! Please? He needs you!"

"Like water in his lungs..." I muttered under my breath. I could have sworn I heard her growl.

"That's it! I'm fed up with the both of you! I can't take being in the middle anymore!! You're both miserable without each other, and you're both making each other even more miserable by not clearing up this whole misunderstanding! Because that's what it is Kagome! It's a fucking misunderstanding, miscommunication, a mistake-"

"You like prefixes don't you?" I interrupted her little rant out of habit. I clamped a hand over my mouth as soon as the words came out. Her face lit up.

"See! That's the Kagome I fell in love with! That's the first non-depressing piece of sarcasm you've said in a month! Oh babe, you're still alive in there aren't you ?!"

She wrapped her arms around me as she gushed over my smart mouthing. I had to smile. She was good at making me do that... I sighed into her shoulder.

"I'm alive...Just not happy. I miss him, too. You know that. But...I really screwed things up. No matter how you say he feels, I'll never be able to live this down. He'll never forget what I did..."

She placed her hands on my shoulders and pulled away to look at me. Her gaze flickered between the jewel that I wore around my neck and my face. There was a look of seriousness in her eyes that I had never seen since we had become so close.

"Kagome. There's something you need to know."

"What?"

"I'm...It's not my place to tell you. But I think it's time you had a talk with

someone."

"Sango?"

"Just...trust me. I know that's asking a lot. But you have to, please. You have to know..."

I looked in confusion at her sincere expression. But I could tell her concern was genuine. Sango had nothing to gain by hurting me, she could be trusted. But I couldn't help but feel a knot of apprehension form in my stomach. Finally, I nodded.

"Okay." She smiled and hugged me tight again. Then she grabbed me by the hand and dragged me from my seat on the bench.

"C'mon. We should go now. The sooner the better...But first I want to raid your closet."

"Oh Sango! My little tomboy's become a woman!" I said dramatically. She glared at me flatly before shrugging and continuing to drag me into my house.

**I POV**

I wandered through the graveyard, taking my time to get to my destination. I had been coming for the past two weeks, since the day Sango had given me the pictures.

It was kind of an accident really. I hadn't intended to end up at the historical cemetery-instead, I had felt drawn there, like some sort of invisible force was pulling me in. The fact that it was two blocks from Higurashi Shrine may or may not have played a factor.

"Don't kid yourself..." I muttered under my breath.

I had actually been on my way to her house that day. I just needed some sort of closure, something to justify the intense depression I was feeling. I was tired of thinking Kagome hated me. I needed to hear it from her. So I walked with full intentions of pushing myself out of her life completely before I could do any more damage.

Before she became as hopeless as I was.

But I had gotten lost, my thoughts had consumed me so much that I hadn't realized where I was going. Before I knew it, I stood before the gates of an ancient burial ground. Then, that feeling had come over me-that curious tingling feeling that ran up and down my spine. I needed to go inside.

That's where I had found him.

Seikai Higurashi.

Kagome's father.

The moment I had stepped through the gates I had walked straight to his grave. An eerie chill had passed over me when I realized how coincidental it was. Too coincidental.

But that feeling had faded away. I read the inscription beneath his name, and this immense peacefulness and thoughtfulness had flooded my mind. I committed it to memory within minutes.

Chances are never given-It is up to us to take them

Now, I sat down cross legged on the grass before his gravestone, already feeling my mind begin to open. I began to think about Kagome, and all of the chances she would be taking in her life, the one she would lead without me. I thought about how happy she would be, how easily she would succeed at everything she would try her hand at. She was special, and the world would know just how special she was one day.

"I mean you've seen her. She's brilliant, she's enchanting, she's so beautiful and...you'd have to be crazy not to love her. I can't imagine why she was, you know...alone all this time. She's so perfect. You must miss her so much-"

I suddenly realized that I was speaking out loud. . Alone in the cemetery. To the tombstone of Kagome's dead father.

"Maybe I am crazy. But it's her fault. She made me this way. She did this to me, made me feel like this. Now I`m talking to a dead guy that I never met..."

I stared at the weatherworn marble, almost expecting an answer. It never came. But for some reason...I wasn't disappointed. And I didn't feel so alone. So I kept talking.

"I wish my father had a grave. So I could visit him. It's hard not knowing, you know? You see, he disappeared. And I'm pretty sure he's dead. I think his best friend killed him to get my mother. Now she's kinda messed up in the head too. My brother's gone. I think he went to look for Dad. But I don't know, because he left a couple years ago. Haven't heard from the guy since. I don't think he found him. I think he really is dead. It would be nice to just know. To just have closure about the whole thing. Like your daughter. I just wish I knew what she's feelin right now. Is she still pissed, is she okay? Does she even want me anymore...that is to say if she ever wanted me in first place. I mean, I can't say if she did, even though that night felt like she did. But I don't know-you see, this

is my first time."

"I'm pretty inexperienced with how to deal with girls and...the guys I know aren't really much help. I don't have anyone to really turn to. Well anyway, I'm pretty sure it meant something to her, she's not very experienced herself I guess. But that night...it was the greatest thing ever. And I'm not talking about the whole kiss, I mean just being with her, just that feeling. She made me so nervous, but I <i>liked</i> it. It made me feel alive, and well-I'd do anything to feel like that again! I just want to be with her, just make her happy. I just wish I knew what she was feeling... I just wanna know if I still have a chance-"

I stopped in the middle of my soliloquy. I wanted to kick myself in the head for being so damn blind. It just made so much sense right then. The whole reason I had been led here in the first place, and the words that echoed over and over in my head.

Chances are never given-It is up to us to take them...

"Fuck..." I whispered. A smile began to form on my face, for the first time in a month. I could feel my heart leaping with every beat, and a long forgotten confidence coursing through my entire body. I reached in to my shirt pocket and pulled out the picture I had been keeping there, my favorite. We had leaned together at the table, after Faye had insisted at least a dozen times. Just the two of us...

I brushed my thumb over her face and smiled even wider. I finally fully appreciated the look of contentment on her face as she rested against my shoulder. She was happy there. With me.

I set the picture down, propped up against the gravestone. Then I patted the top as I stood.

"Thanks Mr. Higurashi." I said softly. Then I turned and ran out of the graveyard, past the heavy iron gates, and on towards the shrine

Hey Jude, don't be afraid

You were made to go out and get her

The minute you let her under your skin

Then you begin to make it better

Tbc…

Please pay attention to the times for the next few chapters, don't want ya to get confused.