Darkness settled over us like a groping hand, warm and clammy. I
sat on the cool concrete of the roof, leaning back against a wall, my legs
slightly spread, knees bent. I gazed tiredly at my gun dangling between my
knees from one hand
"I don't think I can ever forgive you, Akane." Ranma's voice speared
out of the velvet gloom like an icy harpoon aimed at my center.
The muscles of my heart clenched, then expanded, forcing blood to the
extremities of my body, yet every part of me felt numb.
Ranma's voice continued to emerge from the long shadow against the opposite
wall, terse and clipped.
"Can you tell me anytime when I wasn't there for you?" he demanded.
"Whether I wanted to be or not?" I could make out his outline now,
hunched over and angry. "Huh? Can you name one? Didn't I spend two years
just saving your butt from one thing after the other?? And then you thought I
couldn't take care of KUNO, for cryin' out loud!"
Ranma unfolded like clumsy origami, in stiff movements. My heart was thudding
now, trying to warm my flesh turned to ice. I couldn't hear over the pounding
in my ears.
Guilt held me motionless, letting his words beat against me, relishing the
misery. The same pride that had made me test Ranma's love again and again
stopped my tears from forming, wouldn't allow me relief in even this small way.
What do you deserve, I asked myself. The void within me answered with silence.
Finally, he stood in front of me.
"Aren't you going to say anything?" he demanded.
I stared at him mutely. What could I say, really?
"Akane," he gritted out. "Thinking about this right now is
driving me crazy, and you need me just a little sane to keep your faithless*
hide in one piece." He leapt onto the parapet of the roof, and disappeared
again into dimness.
All the arguments I had put together over the years had disappeared in the face
of Ranma's fury. Why hadn't I trusted him enough, I asked myself for the
millionth time. Too much pride in myself had brought me to this pass, I decided
and shivered as regrets resettled on my back like the tattered layers of a
well-worn cloak.
Years of practice helped me tamp down the emotions and endlessly cycling
thoughts, and I pretended to myself that he wasn't at the other end of the
roof, cursing me to the gods. His reaction was actually worse than I'd hoped
for, but better than I'd feared.
This is just the first dance between you and me, Ranma, I decided. It was no
accident that we had met up again. It had to be fate. I'll make it up to you,
Ranma, I vowed. When this is over.......
We'll dance again.
*****
I lay on my back, staring at the stars above me but images from the past
obscured their blue light. I was so furious that I wanted to gouge my fingers
into the concrete below me and crumble it into gray dust.
Akane still sat against the wall at the far end, but I could hear her breathing
and she was asleep. I couldn't believe it. How could she sleep after I'd ranted
and raved like a madman? I'd wanted to shake her so badly, grip her until my
fingers left bruises on her arms. Her explanation had only blown the long
dormant embers of my rage to life.
Although most of me had howled at Akane's treachery, I suppose a part of me had
hoped that Akane's explanation would be some fantastic, logical thing, like in
the movies, where everything fell into place. I snorted in self- mockery. I
should have known that of all things, Akane's explanation would turn out to be
Akane just.......acting like Akane. Hell bent on proving herself and stubborn
as all get out about it.
Then she had raised those large, chocolate eyes to me, and I'd deflated
slightly. What was the use? I never wanted to touch her again. I wanted to keep
her under lock and key. No, I wanted to.............The embers stirred again,
the fire grew hotter, and I flexed my hands, trying to decide between beating
her and pulling her up against a wall and reminding her that she was mine in
the most elemental way I could devise.
Akane bent her back slightly, and stood up. What was she doing? She stood
facing, not me, but a point in the distance. I followed her gaze and looked
over my shoulder. All I could see was the shine of the Huangpu River and the
skyscrapers clustered thickly.
Akane began to walk towards the parapet, her eyes still trained on something I
couldn't see. Her breathing remained steady, which confused me. Obviously,
whatever she was looking at wasn't very frightening. What was I missing?
"Akane?" I asked. I stood and began to approach her. "Akane what
are you looking at?"
She continued to get closer to the parapet, and I unconsciously speeded up
slightly. She had reached the edge now, and the waist high wall had stopped her
progress. She raised one slim arm and pointed. Her arm was a pale blurry length
in the darkness, and following its line still got me no closer to
enlightenment.
She murmured something, and began to climb the parapet. Light from a nearby
building bathed her face and I inhaled in surprise. She was still asleep.
"Akane!" I sprinted forward.
She stood perfectly balanced on the wall, her slim, bare legs poised on the
balls of her feet, raising her arm to point again. Then she stepped off the
edge. I jumped. I scooped her out of mid air, and allowed myself to land on the
stone hood of a window, then leapt back up to the wall and onto the roof, Akane
still in my arms.
She hadn't screamed. I looked at her, and she was fast asleep, still breathing
softly and steadily. Bitterness invaded my thoughts. Akane safe and sound, me
wide-eyed and out of breath. Ain't that always the way, I grumped silently.
I ignored the little voice that asked- Would you have it any other way?
*****
I placed Akane on the ground and shook her gently. She came awake instantly,
and stared at me with sleepy surprise and then dawning suspicion.
"Akane," I said, " You were sleepwalking."
"What?" she exclaimed. "Ranma, what are you talking about?"
"Were you dreaming just now?" I asked. She nodded slowly. "What
did you dream about?"
"The diamond," she said. Her eyes widened, and I could see the exact
moment when she remembered it was gone, but then she turned to look at the spot
she'd been staring at while asleep. "I dreamt that I was looking for it,
and it was........calling me. It.......it.....wanted me to come to it. I......I
was getting close....." Akane clutched my shirt. "Ranma! The diamond
really is cursed!!"
Tbc..
Soooo, you guys are still reading! Thanks lots n' lots for the reviews!! :) I
really hate it when a fic stays on the shelf for years and years (ex Tiger's
Claw....sob sob, what a cool fic that is....I REALLY want to read another
chapter....) Anyways, I do plan on finishing this fic, but having loads of
courses this semester, I'm going to try for a max of 1 or 2 chapters every
weekend.
Being the weekend now, I had time to upload another chapter...I want to try to
make these chapters longer...will try with the next one.
*faithless- used instead of unfaithful to imply that Akane had no faith, as
opposed to being unfaithful.