Part Six
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Waking up
the next morning I realized that night before I had forgotten to turn off my
laptop, at least I had the damned thing plugged into the wall and didn't leave
it running off battery power. Squinting at the screen I read the little clock
in the corner of the screen it was a little after 4:00 AM, pursuing my lips in
displeasure I attempted to bury my face into the bed, it was too early for me
to get up. Twenty sleepless minutes later I realized that I having one of those
occasional bouts of insomnia that tend to really piss people off, I was simply
wasting my bed by laying in bed attempting that which was impossible, sleep. With
an annoyed growl I rolled off the bed landing rump down on the dirty floor. I
really, really wanted some coffee unfortunately all I had in the way of food
was apples and beer, I considered that a somewhat healthy diet for the time
being. Yawning and scratching my shoulder I forced myself to stand up, it
really is a bitch when you're tired but you can't go back to sleep meaning the
only that can be done is finding some way to completely wake up, another growl
sounded as I headed off towards the tiny bathroom.
Glaring at
myself in the mirror I took in the messy bleach blonde and orange hair, which
at the moment was defying gravity, the rumpled clothes I had failed to remove
the night before, and the somewhat bloodshot blue eyes that would soon be
covered with the gray contacts. Having the disposable contacts was somewhat of
a pain, I could not go and get permanent ones without going to a legit doctor,
I could go to one of the underground doctors but those doctors were underground
for damned good reasons, mostly it was because they sucked at being doctors, I
would prefer just stocking up on the disposable contacts, I wasn't taking
chances with two-bit underground doctors who didn't know what the fuck they
were doing.
I stepped
into the shower and turned the knob to hot, instantly I was sprayed with ice
cold water, "Friggin' piece of shit!"
Looks like
the hot water wasn't working this morning, hell ice cold water was definitely
guaranteed to wake me up quickly. After five minutes of the freezing water I
jumped out and wrapped up in one of the thin towels. With my teeth chattering I
finger combed my colorful hair, I cast a glance towards the heater in the
corner of the bathroom, well I knew how I was going to wash my clothes today.
Still
wrapped in the towel I gave my pants, shirt, socks, and strips of cloth from
yesterday's outfit a quick washing then I turned on the tiny heater and draped
the wet clothes over it to dry, they'd be dry in a few hours.
Munching
an apple I plopped down in front of my laptop and began the tedious task of
once again going through the decoded OZ files, while there weren't as many as
there had been when I first started there was more than plenty for me to go
through. After an hour of reading I still hadn't found the file I need, though
I was more than tickled about one document concerning the commercial side of
OZ, apparently there had actually been a commercial committee whose duty was to
promote OZ by way of commercials and propaganda, they had been formed just
before the collapse of OZ and had never been able to carry out their numerous
plans. One of which had involved a collection of OZ dolls, which included a
Treize doll, an Une doll complete with glasses who could be changed to St. Une
and, as well as some Aries and Taurus actions figures. Snickering at the idea
of the dolls I continued to read the remaining files.
After
three more hours of reading I finally came across a clue of sorts, it was a
tiny little document not more than three pages long, it talked of OZ's need to
have some sort of invincible soldier who could quietly take out Alliance bases
and officials. Apparently this would be done to preserve the lives of soldiers
and the number of mobile suits that were often destroyed during fights. With
this so-called invisible soldier who take out an entire base on their own, OZ
would not have to deal with the causalities of the not as highly trained mobile
suits pilots and the suits themselves, Alliance officials could be assassinated
with ease as well. OZ's funds had somewhat dwindled and this was what the
council had come up with in order to save money as well as preserve the
supplies and soldiers that OZ already had in their possession, interesting. Unfortunately
the document stopped there but at least it was a start to answering some of the
questions I had.
With that
I decided that I had read enough for the morning, I converted my laptop back
into a TV, and turned it onto a news channel. Not surprising I was still the
main story, with a disgusted glare I watched the newsman talk about the evil
woman who had tried to murder Relena Dorlan than who had murdered three prison
guards while escaping.
"Good
morning this is newscaster Phil Smith with the daily news. In our main story
the prison escapee Hilde Schbiebker who had been arrested for the attempted
murder of Vice Foreign Minister Relena Dorlan is still on the loose. There have
been no sightings of this dangerous woman and this station still gives warning
to anyone who may spot her, do not attempt any action quickly call your local
authorities, take no chances with this dangerous person. Today we actually have
the warder of the prison that Hilde escaped from with us today, here is Mr.
Kenton Johns. Hello Mr. Johns what do you have to say about this
incident?" Smith turned to an aging bald man who had suddenly appeared
beside him.
"Well
Mr. Smith this woman ruthlessly murdered three of most dedicated guards the
night of her escape, this combined with her attempt to murder the Vice Foreign
Minister should immediately point out the fact that this woman is most possibly
quite psychotic, she needs to be caught and taken down before she can murder
more innocent people. The three guards were dedicated and good men, I knew all
of them personally and they everything that they did in the prison was done for
the better of the colony and the people imprisoned there, everything they did
was ordered by me, those were good men and the loss of their lives is being
mourned by all."
Narrowing
my eyes I glared at the screen.
Dedicated
my ass, I don't know if the rape and beating of me something that was done to
better the colony.
Some of
their behavior started to make sense as I stared at the warden on the screen,
there was something about his eyes, and maybe he had indeed ordered all of
their actions including their treatment of me, if so then he was seriously
screwed.
With a
disgusted snort I clicked off the TV command and went to see if my clothes were
dry yet, they were still a tad damp. Rummaging out a cigarette I lit it and sat
on the floor, today I needed to pick up some leather gloves, a rope, and I
needed to construct a listening device. The gloves and rope I could take care
of at any local flea market I could also pick some more clothes, and the
listening device I could actually make in the hotel room since I had packed my
electronic toys with me.
After
digging through my duffle I had removed everything I would need to make the
device I stuck the cigarette in the corner of my mouth and got to work. Untangling
the numerous wires was I pain but I eventually got them sized, organized and
cut. Arranging them in color order from black to blue to yellow to red they
hooking into the tiny microchip that would make up the bulk of the device, once
made I could place this device on one side of a window and listen to the
conversation on the other side. I made a mental note to pick up a pair of
headphones with the rope and leather gloves too. Soon enough I had constructed
a tiny high tech listening device, inside the microchip was a tiny little wire
that could send out the sounds from whatever was being monitored to a headphone
set with a programmed receptor, this was too damned easy, I was like a kid in
shop class.
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As soon as
my clothes were dry I dressed myself, putting my hair back into the messy
ponytail I stuck the baseball cap onto my head, it was time to head out to the
nearest flea market, I'm like most women I love shopping whether it's clothes,
electronics, or weapons. Shoving a few hundred dollars into my pocket, the rest
of my money was put into the duffle with the cigarettes, my gun, and my laptop.
I slung the duffle across my back, stuck in the gray contacts and headed out of
the motel room locking the door behind me.
Starting
up my motorcycle, damn I loved my this thing, I sped out of the parking lot and
to a flea market I used to go to when Duo and I lived together, it should have
what I needed.
I had
always loved flea markets, they sold so much and for so little money. It would
probably be a good idea to pick up some more food while I was here, as good as
apples and beer was I wanted a little more variety in my diet. Walking down the
numerous aisles I spotted one of the items on my list, rope.
After
haggling for about ten minutes I got the price of the rope down 50% and was on
my way to pick up my other needs. In an electronics booth I picked up a set of
good headphones for cheap and had a friendly conversation with the vender, a
lady who had to be in her sixties at least and was pretty wizened to the way
things were. Saying goodbye to her I continued my walk.
There were
plenty of clothes booths and I went through all of them buying something from
each. After going through all of the booths I looked at what I had acquired,
two pairs of black cargo pants, some black leather gloves, a variety of cotton
tank tops each different in color, one was black, one army green, another dark
blue, one white, and one orange (it matched my streaks who could I say no?),
two men's button down shirts one black and one a dark gray and a black leather
sleeveless vest. One of the booths had an accessory section in which I had also
managed to pick up a watertight digital watch.
All I had
left to do was pick up some food and maybe even some instant coffee. In the
food section I picked up some oranges, crackers, instant coffee, and a bunch of
those Cup O' Noodles things.
The entire
shopping trip had lasted several hours and I was more than ready to head back
to the motel room, maybe I could fit in a nice nap before I headed out tonight
back to the hospital to check on Relena again.Once back in the motel room I
locked the door, folded all of my new clothes neatly, and pulled out the
headphones I had bought. I had some more electronic work to finish up. I opened
up a part of the ear pieces on the head phones and inserted the little receptor
that would receive the noises picked up the listening device I had assembled
earlier this morning, I maneuvered the wires and cut into them slightly so that
they would accept and work with the receptor I had inserted. With all this
completed I programmed an alarm clock function into the laptop to wake me up at
6:00 PM, stripped and fell asleep in the bed.
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At 6
O'clock sharp my laptop gave out a shrill whining noise that had me jumping off
the bed and reaching for gun before I could even fully wake up.
"Damnit
should have set the friggin' thing up to emit some kind of music instead."
I never had been pleasant when I woke up, early on in the relationship Duo had
figured that out and had ended up waking me almost every morning to a session
of love making, and considering how great Duo was in bed it had definitely
mellowed my early morning grumpiness, unfortunately now I didn't have.
I was
feeling love deprived and sex deprived already, what a sad situation it was.
Climbing
out of the bed I pulled on a pair of the black cargo pants, the black tank top,
the leather vest, and finally my leather gloves and combat boots. I packed my
ammunition, my listening device, the headphones, the rope and the laptop into
the duffle; my .44 magnum went into the waistline of the cargo pants.
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Working on
my laptop I hacked into the hospital computer system, once I had gotten through
all the security barriers I downloaded an overall detailed blueprint of the
building that specified all the hallways, rooms, closets, and even alcoves. Next
I downloaded another blueprint but instead of a structural blueprint I
downloaded a security blueprint that showed the exact location of every
security camera, and any security systems that were in the building. Both of
these blueprints I then downloaded into a small handheld computer that I taken
out of the house when I had gotten my laptop. With this task done I had nothing
else to do other than wait for a good time to go so I lazed around the motel
room a bit For the first time since I escaped from the jail I actually what
could have been considered a semi-decent meal with one of those noodle cup
things, some crackers, an orange, and a beer. With my stomach feeling
pleasantly full I pulled the black baseball cap onto my head and looked out of
the window, it had been dark outside for a few hours and it now the perfect
time to head out.
Locking
the motel door behind me I hopped on the motorcycle and drove off towards the
hospital. At the hospital I parked around the corner and parked. Tonight I
wasn't going to go to the roof of the building next to the hospital, instead I
was going to sneak into the hospital itself. However at the hospital I didn't
go in at the ground floor; I climbed the wall and let myself into a darkened
room on the third floor, the patient sleeping in the room never awakened while
I snuck it. Opening the door a bit I glanced out into the silent hallway, it
was late at night and the shift working was a skeleton crew. The only problem I
might have was the hospital security cameras and the security that had been
added since Relena had been admitted.
Silently I
left the room and slipped into the hallway, I needed to get to the hospital
roof however I wasn't willing to climb the side of the building a good twenty
stories up to get to it. I ghosted down the hall and slid into a supply closet
where I know where there would be no cameras. Pulling out my laptop, which I
had left on, I booted up the wireless modem and once again hacked into the
hospital computer system, in order to get to the stairwell I would have to
creep past two cameras and another camera, which was located on the top floor
in front of the door to the roof. Glancing down at the handheld I clicked
through the security blueprints and noted the numbers of those three security
cameras, back on the laptop I went to the system that controlled the cameras
and tweaked the three that I would have to pass. Now those three cameras would
show regular footage of the area they recorded and my presence would never be
recorded or noted, the guards watching the security screens would never know
that I had been there.
Activating
the programs I closed the laptop, and stuck it and the handheld into the
duffle. Walking back into the hall way I moved towards the stairwell, looking
up I saw a nurse coming the hall she had yet to notice me so quickly I slipped
into another closet and listened waiting for her to pass by my. As soon as she
had walked I stuck my head out observed her position, left the closet and ran
like a ghost to the stairwell.
In the
stairwell I dashed quietly up the stairs on my way up to the top floor in the
hospital, I had to slow down at the eighteenth floor, Relena's floor, guards
had been posted in the stairwell, lucky for me there were only two of them. I
pulled the laptop back out and typed in a few commands, within seconds their
walkie-talkies began to make a lot of noise, "Johansen! Roberts! We have a
possible break in at the 6th window on the left side, you're the closest units
move out!" The two guards ran out of the stairwell towards the mentioned
window, of course it was a false alarm, all they would find would be a
terrified nurse who apparently had accidentally set off the alarm, I knew from
the hospital schedule that she would be at that specific window making her
rounds, damn I was good. With that taken care of I ran the rest of the way up
to top floor. From there all I had to do was pick a lock and I was on the roof
of the hospital.
I ran to
the side of the roof that I knew would lead me down to Relena's room on the
eighteenth floor. Tightening the gloves, I tied the rope to a generator near
the edge of the roof and let it dangle down the side of the building.
I climbed
down the rope slowly and eventually stopped right outside Relena's window. I
stayed off to the side where the room's occupants were guaranteed to not notice
me. With one hand I held onto the rope and braced my feet against the wall,
with the other hand I rummaged through my duffle picking out the headphones,
which I put on my head, and the listening device was removed next. Stilling
holding onto the rope with one hand I leaned slightly towards the window and
attached it to the glass in a corner where it wouldn't be noticed, I couldn't
help it; I allowed myself a quick peep into the room. Heero and Duo were there
and their eyes were fixed on the bed next to them, I looked at Duo sadly for a
second before I switched to the bed they were staring at.
What I saw
almost caused me to let go of the rope in shock, Relena. Relena's eyes were
open wide, she was finally awake from the coma. Swiftly I pulled back out of
the window and with fumbling hands switched the headphones on and listened to
the conversation in the room.
Heero's
voice was the first I heard, "Relena how are you feeling? You've been up
for two days but you were heavily sedated so you could properly regain all your
senses and any memories from your ordeal."
Two days?
Why the hell hadn't I heard anything about it on the news?
"My
ordeal? Is that what you're calling it," Relena's voice was weak,
"How long have I been out?"
"A
little over two weeks, for a while they thought you'd never wake up,"
Heero's voice was choked with emotion; maybe the perfect soldier really did
Lena. I had to see if that developed into something.
"I
remember what happened I was visiting Hilde because I was lonely and then,"
I could hear a quick almost panicked intake of breath from Relena, "Oh my
God! Hilde! Where's Hilde? Please Heero please! Tell me Hilde's ok dear god
please tell me she survived." Relena sounded as if she would break out in
tears at any moment and there was complete silence coming from the two pilots. I
breathed in and closed my eyes for a minute as I felt a wetness come forth, she
remembered.
Her voice
came again causing my eyes to open, "Heero, Duo…where is Hilde? Did she
make it ok? How much was she hurt?"
Duo's
voice broke the silence, "Relena, Hilde survived but we found her holding
the knife that you were stabbed it, her fingerprints were all over you…She was
arrested." His voice was quiet and devoid of the normal cheerfulness that
it usually held, that scared me.
"What?!
What do you mean? Why would you arrest Hilde?" Her mind probably was still
a bit foggy and she couldn't comprehend what Duo was trying to tell her.
"Relena,
we thought Hilde was the one who attacked you like Duo said she had the knife,
her fingerprints were everywhere, and we found of some drug in her system. She
was arrested for your attempted murder." Heero's voice was calm yet held
trace gentleness as he talked slow enough so as not to strain Relena in her
weakened state.
Yeah
that's me Hilde the knife murderer, but if you want to make it sound really
good go for Hilde the axe murder, has a cooler ring to it.
"Hilde?
Hilde attack me? Hilde didn't attack me! Hilde was trying to protect me from
that man! He threw some tiny knife at her and that's when she started acting
slow and fell, but until then she had been fighting him trying to keep him away
from me. How could ever think that Hilde would attack me? She is one of my best
friends, she would never hurt me, I know that and so should you!" Relena
started sobbing, "Where is Hilde now? He hurt her! Did she at least get
help before you threw her in some jail? Why didn't you bother asking her what
happened? How could do that to her? Duo?" "Relena we were panicking,
we found you almost dead and we found her with the knife, we were completely in
a frenzy we just jumped to conclusion we saw and arrested her. I jumped to the
conclusion and I arrested her." Duo's voice kept breaking as he talked,
and I felt a lump in my throat form at the pain I heard in his voice.
"Well
you have to fix it now! You have to get Hilde out of there and let everyone
know that she's innocent!" Relena said as she continued to sob.
"We
can't Relena."
Relena's
voice rose, "What do you mean you can't?! Why can't you? Hilde's innocent
I know that! I was attacked by a man I have never seen before not Hilde!"
Heero set
out to explaining the situation, "Two days ago Hilde escaped from the
prison she was being held in," He audibly drew in his breath, "She
killed three guards in the process, no one knows where she is Relena." If
I could have I would have tortured those bastard guards too but unfortunately
time was a constraining factor.
"Hilde
killed three guards? Why would Hilde do that?"
"We're
not sure Relena but it all pointed even more to the conclusion that she
attacked you and attempted to murder you and then once in prison she murdered
the three guards. All of this pointed to her guilt, every authority on the
colony is looking for her." Heero explained.
"Yes
but we all know Hilde. She's not the murdering type! She wouldn't have done
that unless she had a really good reason to! Come on Duo! You know Hilde more
than all of us imagine some of the good reasons she could have had to do that
to those guards!" Relena continued to defend me, being female I bet she
instantly know what one of those good reasons was, hell rape was one of the
best reasons in the book.
"I
know Relena and there was two reasons why Hilde would have done that, one would
have been if they were trying to kill her, the other…" Duo's voice broke
and he lapsed into a pained silence, apparently he guessed the rape reason too.
"I
don't understand though! Why can't you clear her now?!" Relena demanded to
know.
Duo
remained silent and once Heero took up the chore of explaining, "If Hilde
is innocent then that means whoever did attack you is still out there. As it is
no one knows that you're awake, if we broadcast that you aware awake and that
Hilde is innocent then whoever attacked you will know and they might come after
again and they also might start hunting for Hilde, we can't take that
chance."
"So
you'll let the entire colony go on believing that she's a heartless murderer? What
if someone spots her and decides to take 'justice' into their own hands and
kill her?!"
"All
of the Preventers that aren't here are out there searching for her, they have
explicit orders to not hurt simply apprehend. We will do what we can Relena but
no matter what we cannot put your life in danger, Hilde would understand that. Not
to mention if Hilde is found and cleared she would be held responsible for the
lives of those three guards, she'd be stuck right back in prison and put on
trial for murder."
I hated to
agree with Heero but he was right, they needed to go on broadcasting me as the
guilty party, no one could afford to put Relena's life in danger, even at the
cost of my own life, Relena's voice captured my attention again.
"Do
you even know if she is alive?"
Duo
answered her this time, "No Relena we don't know, and when the guards'
bodies were found this was in one of their pockets…" There was silence and
the sound of cloth against skin moving.
"Duo?
Isn't that the engagement ring you gave her?"
"Yes
Relena, it is. We don't know if they took it from her or if she put it there
when she left. After we arrested her I thought about it, and I knew what a
mistake I had made but we couldn't do anything. Oh god Relena I fucked up, I
fucked up bad." Duo's voice was so emotional, he hurting pretty bad from
the sound of it all.
"Oh
Duo, Hilde loved you so much, could you really blame her if she did? Can you
imagine what all these accusations some coming from you must have done to her? She
was probably hurt beyond belief that the man she loved thought she was capable
of such a thing…" Relena's sobbing grew as she talked.
Silence
except for Relena's sobbing dominated the room. I could have jumped through the
window and presented myself, but Relena was right I was hurting, hurting bad,
even though Duo was obviously upset over everything the fact that he had
considered me guilty was eating at me, a feeling of betrayal was still coursing
through my veins and it made me bitter. To top it all off I had a desperate
need for revenge against whoever had attacked Relena, I wanted to find them and
take care of them myself. I would keep an eye on Relena but I needed to find
out who had caused all of this, they couldn't be allowed to roam free.
With tears
sliding down my face I climbed up the rope back to the roof. I untied the rope
and started to walk towards the door to the stairwell. Relena had been right I
was hurt beyond belief, could I ever make myself forgive Duo? As important as
that was there still was an even more important question, who the hell was this
organization that was trying to build up their armies and were they the ones
who had tried to kill Relena? It wouldn't surprise me in the least though I was
hoping that they weren't connected, this just made a lot more problems for me.
Back at
the motel room I tried to surf the net for more information on the rising
military group, the tears continued to fall down my face and finally I had to
stop. Leaving the laptop I sat on the bed, held the pillow tightly to my face
and sobbed over everything that happened to me, especially I sobbed over my
separation from Duo, I loved him so much that it felt like I was dying inside.
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After
hours of crying I looked up from the bed and stood. I loved Duo and my love
wouldn't allow me to hold anything against him. As much I probably should not
do it I knew what I had to do.
Walking
outside I once again locked the door and got onto the motorcycle. I drove off
into the dark night and down the road. I drove on and on and finally pulled to
a stop at my final destination, the house I had shared with Duo. Sitting on the
cycle I stared at the house, it was dark, and Duo's car was parked outside, he
was home. Leaving the motorcycle at the curb I walked to the front door, and
let myself as I used to do when I had lived there.
Without
making a sound I walked through the dark living room and up the stairs, the
door to the bedroom was closed and no light came from underneath it, perhaps he
was asleep, with a slight shiver of fear of the unknown, I opened the door and
walked into the room softly.
Duo in
nothing but his boxers was on the bed on top of the of the covers, his eyes
were closed in sleep but his movements and slight sounds proved his sleep was
anything but restful. When I had first moved into the house with him he had
often had nightmares and while he slept acted much like the way he was tonight.
Those nights when he had the nightmares I had always walked into his room and
hugged him while he slept, I did this almost every night holding him until he
was once again silent and sleeping peacefully until once night he had woken up,
that had been the night that we had become lovers.
With a
sigh I walked over the bed and smoothed my hand across his sweaty brow, my
touch seemed to bring comfort to him and he stilled for a moment before
whatever demons were haunting him tonight returned and he began his thrashing
again. More tears came to my eyes I looked down upon the man I loved more than
anything, I could never stand to see the pain he went through while he had
nightmares, I leaned down and kissed his warm brow gently. As I rose a hand
gripped my arm and I found myself staring into wide purple eyes.
"Who
are you?" His voice was somewhat raw but understandable. I didn't answer
his question instead I stared into his deep violet eyes, "Don't try
anything."
With one
hand still gripping my arm his other reached out and clicked on the bedside
lamp. I knew I would be unrecognizable; I hadn't bothered to take out the
contacts yet or even change. Duo stared at me with narrowed eyes as he
recognized me, "Hell you're that kid I offered a ride to the other day,
how the hell did you get here? What the hell are you doing here?" He stood
and his grip on my arm tightened as he questioned me.
Still I
said nothing and I felt tears running down my face again, he was in pain and I
couldn't stand it. He stared at me and his eyes looked confused as he saw my
tears, with his free hand he wiped at them, "Kid, what are you doing here?"
His questioning became gentler as he saw my obviously upset state. I wanted to
tell him who I was but suddenly my common sense broke into my mind and I knew
that if I told him he wouldn't let go off and find whom gone after Relena. If I
told him my plans would be hampered it would be just like it had been when I
had gone on Libra to get information for the pilots he always hated the thought
of me being in any type of danger and would always shoot down any type of
situation that would put me in danger, he would do everything in his power to
stop me from going after the person who attacked Relena. I couldn't take that
chance as much as I wanted to, not to mention for all I knew whoever had
attacked Relena could be watching the house now and if my identity became known
all hell would break loose, I had to keep this façade up.
With pain
eating at my heart I put on the same childish voice I had used yesterday when
Dup had offered me a ride, "I…I'm sorry…I didn't mean to…" I felt my
shoulders shake as I began to sob, I had to get out of here the longer I stayed
the more chance there was the Duo would become fully awake and recognize me. With
a muffled sob I turned and ran out of the room, I heard a surprised exclamation
from Duo as he started to come after me.
Shit, I
shouldn't have come here.
Doubling
my speed I fled down the stairs with Duo on my heels, as I ran out of the front
door I slammed the door behind me hoping it wouldn't hurt him too much.
As the
door hit Duo he shouted, "Fuck!" Jumping onto the motorcycle I
started it up and burned rubber down the road as I heard Duo yelling,
"Wait kid stop!" Without looking back I went at least 30 miles over
the speed limit all the way back to the motel.
I had to
do that, I had to go back and see for myself just how much pain my Duo was in
as much at it wounded me I had needed to know. I knew now, Duo was hurting as
much I was but we couldn't be together until this mess was over. Back in my
motel room I once again fell upon the bed sobbing, I cried myself to sleep
eventually.
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