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Altered Memory

Chapter 9 Part I: The Meeting of Old Friends


“What the hell’s going on?” Kenshin demanded furiously, dragging her across the hall into his study, too angry to close the door behind him before he was shaking her. “He kissed you!”

Kaoru shuddered deeply, her hand coming up to wipe her mouth as if she would wipe away the memory. “If you think he got me out there to make love to me, you’re wrong,” she said, on the edge of hysteria. “Kissing me was only his final insult. Before that, he offered me money to take myself off.”

“I’ll kill him!” Kenshin’s rage took her by surprise. “I’ve taken all I can stand from that man tonight.” He moved towards the door, determined to force a show-down evident in every line of his stride, and in that split second, much as she would have liked to see her tormentor measuring his length on the ground, she knew she had to stop it from happening.

“No, Kenshin, please.” She seized his arm, hanging on when he would have dragged free of her. “Oh please, it’ll only cause more trouble. I should never have told you, and I wouldn’t have, only–” She stopped, knowing it would only fuel his temper if she admitted just how much the incident had upset her. “Don’t you see? If you rush out there to my defense, it’ll only confirm his suspicions.”

He stopped trying to brush her off and caught her hand. “What suspicions?”

Too late, she could see herself being dragged in deeper. “Oh please, can’t we just let it drop?” she pleaded.

“What exactly has he been accusing you of?”

“It’s all so silly.” Embarrassment put color into her cheeks. “He has this ridiculous idea that I’m some sort of femme fatale with designs on you, and that you find me more attractive than you should. He– he seems to believe there’s something between us. We know it’s a ludicrous suggestion, but you must see that if you make an issue over it, Tomoe’s going to be hurt.”

Kenshin’s eyes burned with a strange fire. “Is it so ludicrous, Kaoru? Hasn’t there always been something between us? I only ever had to touch you.” His hands slid up her arms to her shoulders, drawing her against him, his head coming down so slowly that surely she could have moved away. And then his mouth was claiming hers, gently, almost tentatively at first, as if relearning the contours, the taste, and it was too late to deny him as she drowned in a sea of sensation. The passion this one man had always been able to elicit blazed up, burning all the more fiercely for having lain dormant for ten years.

The blind response of her mouth and yielding body, of her urgently seeking hands, had him shuddering against her, his kiss deepening with the hunger of a starving man, his arms crushing her possessively, his body enveloping her as id he would absorb into himself. For Kaoru, there was no past and no future, just this present terrible aching need to lose herself in this man.

So absorbed were they in needs that have been denied too long, neither heard the door pushed wider. Even Tomoe’s cry, “Kenshin... how could you?” took several seconds to impinge.

Kaoru swayed drunkenly as Kenshin let her go, taking longer to come back to earth than he, and it was a crash landing when she saw the guilt with which he faced his fiancée. “Tomoe... I’m sorry. I never intended this to happen.”

“What do you mean? You didn’t intend to kiss her, or you didn’t intend that I should see you doing it?” Tomoe challenged tearfully.

“I didn’t intend– oh hell!” He swore helplessly. “Tomoe, we have to talk.” He put out a hand appealingly but she struck it away.

“Talk! Talk! Were you talking to her? I hate her. I hate you both!” With a sob, she spun on her heel and fled.

“Kaoru.” He turned back to her. Burning with an uncontrollable heat only moments ago, she was now encased in ice, deeply ashamed of her mindless response to Kenshin’s love-induced actions.

Love! What Kenshin had been offering had nothing to do with love. It had been merely lust, and she shouldn’t have needed Saitou’s warning to tell her that when she had her own experience to go on.

“Kaoru... don’t go,” he said as she evaded him and reached the door.

But she ignored the plea in his voice as she said bitterly, “You always did enjoy playing one girl off against another, didn’t you, Kenshin? Well it looks as if you’ve done it once too often. If you have any hopes of staying engaged to Tomoe, then you’d better go after her.”

“Kaoru, I don’t want–”

“You don’t want!” Her anger was all the more bitter for having been allowed that one glimpse of heaven before having it snatched away. “Kenshin, have you any idea of what you’ve done to her? Take it from me, I know. I’ve been there.” She walked away quickly across the hall and up the stairs, leaving him gray-faced.


All right, that’s it folks! Just kidding! You might kill me if I end it here since you gave me a week to have this ready and all I came up with is this. So read on! )


A few days later, Kaoru walked out of the London hospital into the noon-day sun. She felt odd, enormously relieved and yet still with unease. She ought to take a taxi to the flat but she hated to go back there when it made her feel so uncomfortable. Sighing, she knew she had no alternative when there were phone calls she had to make, but to put off that moment, she decided to walk.

It had been marvelous to see Yoshida sitting up and looking so much more like her usual bright self this morning. Last night when they had allowed Kaoru a few moments with her, she had been drowsy after the anesthetic and frighteningly pale and frail from the operation, and Kaoru had felt the weight of responsibility heavy on her shoulders.

Of course Yoshida’s fist question this morning had been to ask if she had heard from Kenshin yet and Kaoru admitted she hadn’t. she assured her, though, that the rest of her family would visit that day having been telephoned earlier. It hadn’t been the answer Yoshida had wanted and Kaoru knew the older woman was as puzzled and worried by Kenshin’s inexplicable disappearance as she was herself.

At first, the morning after the dreadful evening, Kaoru had felt nothing but relief when Yoshida told her Kenshin had gone off to London. She had no idea whether he had healed the breach with his fiancée before he left and as she had seen nothing of Tomoe or her father in the ensuing days, she still had no clue. And she told herself it was no business of hers anyway.

It was only when, a week after, Dr. Taseki had told Yoshida that there would be a bed for her at the hospital the following Thursday that his absence became a source of concern. Repeated phone calls to his London apartment brought no reply, and no one at Merrifields knew where he was. After several days, they had ascertained that he had been to London and had later flown to Germany, but where he had gone from there was a mystery.

In his absence, all arrangements for Yoshida’s operation fell on Kaoru. Not that she minded but she was worried about whether she was doing things as he would have wanted, especially when Yoshida insisted that she make herself at home in his flat.

She was debating on whether to treat herself lunch outside when she reached the building of Kenshin’s flat. The lift whisked her up to the fourth floor and she took out the key and fitted it into the lock. But she hadn’t had time to turn it when the door was snatched open.

“Where the hell have you been?” Kenshin demanded, glowering at her.

It was a nightmare come true, Kenshin coming back to find her occupying his flat. “Where have I been? I’ve been visiting your aunt, that’s where. Someone had to organize things while you were gadding about. Yoshida had her operation yesterday.”

“Yes, I know that.” He closed the door behind her and hustled her into the sitting room. “I’ve just come from Merrifields. I’m sorry you had all the responsibility for Yoshida, but there were things I had to do. And I didn’t mean that. I meant where have you been now? I called the hospital and they said you left over an hour ago.”

Her eyes widened. “I-I walked.”

“And here I’ve been imagining you mugged or knocked down crossing the road.” Kaoru was curious to see signs of strain in his face. Had he really been worried about her?

“Well, you’re here now, so you’d better get packed,” he went on. She had known of course that if Kenshin came back, she would have to move out, but it hurt that he was so eager to get rids of her.

“I’m sorry if you’re annoyed that I stayed here, but I never actually unpacked so it won’t take a minute to get my things.”

“Kaoru, of course I’m not annoyed. Where else would you have stayed? But right now, I’m taking you to Merrifields.”

“Merrifields!” Kaoru stared up at him. It was the last place she wanted to go to and she couldn’t imagine why he had suggested it.

“Misao’s at Merrifields, Kaoru. That’s where I’ve been – after I settled some urgent business here in London and in Germany. She wants to see you very badly, and Kaoru, it’s imperative you talk to her. Don’t worry about Yoshida; the family has worked out a system that would always have Yoshida some visitors.”

She hardly heard his last statement. Misao... Kaoru closed her eyes, the longing to see her friend washing over her. But Merrifields! How could she bear to go there, to all the memories it held?

As if he understood her hesitation, Kaoru said urgently, “Trust me, Kaoru. I know I failed you once, but please, trust me now.” And something in his voice had her bowing her head in silent acquiescence.


“There’s only Misao here at the moment.” Kenshin said as they pulled into the driveway. The ride was silent, as Kaoru didn’t want to talk and as memories flooded her mind.

“Not– not her family too?”

“Later. They’ll be here in a few days but we thought it was important that Misao should be alone for this meeting.” Kenshin got out of the car and opened her door, holding her hands firmly as he helped her to her feet.

If that was meant to be reassuring, Kaoru didn’t find it so. Only there was no retreat. the door opened and she turned, her heart hammering. She saw a petite, superbly groomed young woman standing there, her glossy dark hair flowing, her clothes impeccably fashionable. A stranger!

For the space of several heartbeats, they stared at each other, and then Misao was leaping down the steps, a grin spreading across her face that was so familiar.

“Kaoru!” Outstretched arms wrapped around her and held her without restraint. “Oh Kaoru, it’s so good to see you.”

“Misao.” Tears filling her eyes and spilling down her cheeks, Kaoru clung to her old friend, and it was some time before either of them could bear to draw apart. Slipping Kaoru’s hand through her arm, Misao led her into the house, leaving Kenshin to bring her suitcase.


Okay, I have to end it here. Seriously. Next chap, find out why Kaoru needs to talk to Misao imperatively. What business did Kenshin have to do in London and Germany? (oh wait, that’s for the last chapter.) 2 more updates and then this is done (kinda makes you wonder how I can wrap this up in 2 updates, don’t you?). So you all must review now!