Chapter 1

Two weeks had gone by since the incident. It was Quatre who broke the news to Duo. He was crushed and crazy with grief, not believing a word he said. It took hours to calm him down. Heero had stopped by to tell Relena. She was torn up at the news. Concerned, he stopped by her house earlier to see how she was holding up. She was one of Hilde's closest friends. Although his relationship with Relena had ended a long time ago, they were still friends. She was holding up ok, but she had always been strong when she needed to. Right now Duo needed that. The funeral had been nice. At Sally's request it was a closed casket. Relena sat with Duo, both of them crying hard. Heero stood to the side to observe the ceremony. He had hardly taken a break, working around the clock, gathering as much information as he could. Soon he would work at deciphering the clues he had in front of him. No matter how long it took, he'd do it. Duo was ordered not to take the case as he originally wanted. Heero had promised to keep him informed as he went along. He sighed and let his mind wander. He thought he'd be dancing with her at her wedding and here he was, a pallbearer for her funeral. It wasn't right. Sally had begun the autopsy a couple days after the incident but had to call for another doctor to do it. It was too upsetting for her. No one should have to dissect a friend. Heero left soon after the funeral, followed by Trowa. He saw Trowa pulling out a cigarette. "Can I bum one?" Heero asked. Trowa looked surprised. "You? You quit though." Heero raised an eyebrow. "So did you." Trowa relented and passed him one. They stood side by side against his car, smoking and thinking. "Any ideas? Any guesses at all?" Trowa asked, inhaling deeply of the intoxicating smoke. Heero shook his head. "I'm still waiting for the results of the autopsy." Trowa looked at the sky. It looked like it was going to rain in the next day or so. "I can't believe this is happening." Trowa commented, letting his head drop back to stare at the sky. Heero just nodded. "Hn." He knew Trowa was thinking about Duo. He was pretty worried about him too. The guy wasn't able to function right without Hilde. And now she was gone forever. Heero put out his cigarette with his shoe. "I have to get back to work." He commented. Trowa nodded and stepped away from the car. "Call me if you need me." Trowa called out as he was walking towards his own car. Heero nodded and started his engine, dreading to sift through the evidence for clues. Still, he was more than determined to find the killer.

            It was 1:30 a.m. Heero rubbed his eyes tiredly. He needed to focus. His mind kept wandering to Hilde, not as an assignment, but as a friend, the memories slowly passing in his head. He always joked that if Duo were ever dumb enough to lose her, he'd be there to give it a shot. They used to laugh about it all the time, even though a part of him said it was the truth. There wasn't much Heero could do for Duo now, except solve this case and give him peace of mind. Right now, Relena was using her special touch to help heal the wounds. He and Relena had broken up years ago, but had remained good friends. He was thankful she was here to help. He couldn't help Duo and solve this case. He and Relena would have to work together to get things done. He shook his head. He needed coffee. Frowning at his empty cup he thought about making another pot and decided against it. He had a long day and he needed sleep. He pushed the evidence lying on his desk aside. He would think more clearly tomorrow....

            Hilde, stumbled, her knees scuffed with blood and dirt. A hand viciously grabbed her by the collar and forced her to continue. She was crying...."Why? How could you do this?" She cried harder. Suddenly she looked up, her face a bluish color, like the blood had been drained out of her. Her throat was wide open, exposing her esophagus, blood crusted around the opening. Her mouth moved slowly, as if she was trying to speak, but there was no sound. Her lips just moved. "Heero help me!!!!!" She screamed suddenly. -

Heero's eyes flew open as he sat up. His eyes focused around his room...He had been dreaming. His hand was around his throat as if protecting it. It took him a few minutes to catch his breath. He was soaked in his own sweat. The dream had been so real. The detail. It was almost like he was there...He shook it off as best as he could and crept into his bathroom to shower. He stepped into the cold water and let it run down his face, washing away the effects of the dream. Every time he closed his eyes he could see her, tears streaming down her face. She looked so scared..."Heero help me!" echoed through his mind. His eyes flew open as he grabbed the wall, trying to keep his balance. "I'm going crazy." He mumbled as he turned off the water and stepped out. He needed coffee....Fast.

Chapter 2

Heero called over to Relena's, where Duo was staying. Relena informed him that he was asleep and that he was so distraught that they had to give him sleeping pills to rest. Heero tried not to let it bother him, but it did. How was Duo going to get through this? It was good that someone was there for him, especially at a time where he could not be. Another week had passed and no leads. It had been over a month now and there was nothing to go on. It was as if the killer left no clues, but that was impossible. There was always a clue; you just had to look in the right place. He was on his way to Quatre's place. It seems he was not the only one plagued with haunting twisted dreams. Trowa answered the door when Heero rang, leading him into Quatre's library. It was his place to escape when he was stressed or upset. Trowa had informed him that Quatre had been there frequently lately. Heero hoped he could be of some help. He sat down across from Quatre, who was staring into the cup of tea cradled in his hand. Trowa stepped out to have a cigarette and to let them talk privately. "I wish he'd quit." Quatre commented as he watched Trowa exit the room. Heero just nodded. What else could he do since he started up again as well? Hilde had always nagged him to quit and finally he relented. She was probably turning in her grave that he started again. "Trowa tells me you've been having some strange dreams." Heero started. Quatre sighed and shook his head. "They're the type of dream that I know is trying to tell me something.... I just can't see what it is." "Can you describe it to me?" Heero pressed. Quatre raised an eyebrow. Heero had never taken an interest in his dreams before. "It's Hilde. It takes place at the scene of the murder.... I think. It's so dark and jumbled that I can't get a good grip on it.... But...I can SEE her and she's crying. She says I don't understand. That she's trying to reach someone...But I don't know who." Heero wasn't ready to spill the beans on his own dreams just yet. He pressed further. "How long has this been happening?" Quatre set his tea down and rubbed his eyes with his fingers. "Oh, let's see. I'd say a week after the murder." He looked up at Heero. "Strange thing is, last night was different. Something else happened." Heero leaned in. "Like what?" Quatre looked around the room, as if he was wary of someone eavesdropping. "I don't know. It gives me a weird feeling. If I tell you, you've got to promise not to tell anyone. I mean ANYONE, Heero. I don't think anyone's supposed to know." Heero gave his word. Quatre leaned in more, his voice a bit shaky. "Ummm... The dream wasn't the same. Hilde was there, but she wasn't crying. She sounded desperate. She was all blue and...." He had to swallow and catch his breath. Heero patted his knee to comfort him. "It's ok Quatre, take your time." He nodded and continued. "She's standing by the trees and she reaches out and takes my hand. She leads me away to the edge of the woods. She turns to me. Her face is so pale...She points in the distance and tells me in a hoarse whisper 'He isn't looking in the right place.' I look up and it's the old asylum." Heero frowned. "How can the answer be in there?" Quatre reached behind him to grab a folder. "I thought the same thing. Strange enough, I went through their files and found something very interesting. It seems that it was a very confidential file, but someone we know has been admitted involuntarily. It's censored on who admitted the patient. It was kept very under wraps. This is all I could sneak through." Heero took the folder, skimming through the files and pages. His hand froze as he stared at the document he was looking for. "What? This doesn't make sense. How?" Quatre shook his head. "I don't know, but isn't it ironic? I mean, I had no clue about this, then the dream. I don't know, I have a hunch they go together." Heero studied the file some more. "Why? Can't it just be mental problems?" Quatre shook his head, sadly. "Never seemed crazy to me. I wish we didn't grow so far apart or else I could be of some help." Heero put the files away and stood. "Is it alright if I take these?" Quatre stood up to walk him out. "Yes, yes. I got them for you." He paused at the doorstep. "Heero?" Heero turned to look at him. Quatre had grown so much and had grown stronger in years past. Still, he looked so innocent and vulnerable, standing with his arms crossed, hugging them to his body as if he were chilled. "Hn?" Heero answered. Quatre scowled. "Nail this bastard." Heero nodded and continued to his car. Trowa came to stand by Quatre, watching quietly as Heero backed out of the driveway and headed down the road. Quatre looked up at him, watching the breeze stir long locks of hair across his face, shielding his deep green eyes from the setting sun. "Do you think he can solve this case?" Quatre asked, hopeful. Trowa sighed. "With the amount of evidence we are sorely lacking, I don't think ANYONE can. But if we have any hope at all, my money's on Heero." Quatre nodded and followed Trowa back inside.

Heero drove home, deeply disturbed by the file in his possession. Could this be linked to Hilde somehow? And how would it fit together? How could he have not known that an old acquaintance suddenly got thrown into a nuthouse with no obvious reasons? He couldn't shake off his anxiety as he pulled into his driveway and entered his house. He got ready for bed, skipping dinner for the third night in a row. He climbed out of his clothes and slipped into bed, opening the file. Reading over it again, he decided he had to know. First thing in the morning he would head out to the asylum and seek out the answers to the questions in front of him. "What do you know?" He asked to the picture on the top page. He was going to look for answers in the one estranged person he would never have thought to help him. He read the name again before tossing the file onto his nightstand. He laid in the dark, staring at the ceiling. What could she know? How could she possibly be connected with this? There was only one way to know and he would find out tomorrow. He would get his answers from her - Dorothy Catalonia.

Chapter 3

Heero pulled up to the asylum. Getting out of the car he walked past the stone sign with the words "Hawthorne Institute for the Mentally Distressed." engraved on it. He shook his head. They should of just put 'nut house'. It was basically the same thing. After showing his badge numerous times, Heero finally got through to the high security level. Even with his badge and identification, he was having a hard time getting through. After what seemed like hours he was finally walking down a long corridor, following a guard much younger than himself. "Do you know why she has been put in here?" Heero asked. The guard turned his head slightly and shook his head slowly. "Nah. All I was told was that she was highly dangerous and psychotic. When she first got here she used to fight. They put her through some sort of shock therapy. I think she's quite calm now, but we're told to not take any chances." He turned more to look at Heero. "What business do you have with her, might I ask?" "I'm investigating a case in which she might have been involved. That's all I’m at liberty to say." Heero replied straight faced. His tone left enough insinuation not to ask any more questions. They finally came to stand in front of a steel door. "She's been restrained so you can go in. We'll have you on camera so you'll be safe. Good luck Detective Yuy." The guard unlocked the door and stepped out of the way. Heero took a deep breath before entering the room. There she was, sitting in the corner, curled up. Heero took a closer look and frowned. She wasn't curled up on purpose. They had her bound in a straight jacket with a chain attached to the wall. Her long platinum hair coiled onto the floor in a long single braid. "Dorothy." was all Heero could muster to say. She looked up slowly. There were so many emotions that ran across her face as she saw him, but then the blank expression returned. "Heero.... Heero? What are you doing here?" She asked slowly. He could see the dark circles under her eyes, evidence of her lack of sleep. He was sure he looked the same. "I.... I have some questions. I need to know...Did you know about Hilde?"  Dorothy looked away for a moment. "She's dead, isn't she?" She asked softly. Heero nodded. He noticed that Dorothy kept her eye on the camera positioned behind him. "I.... I’m being watched...I can't tell you anything." She whispered, her eyes darting back and forth between the camera and him. He frowned. "Why are you in here?" He asked plainly. He was startled by her laugh. "I'm crazy! Why the fuck do you think I’m in here!?" Something about the look in her eye told him she was covering up something. She was lying. He had to find out why. She frowned as she thought. "You came here looking for answers.... But you didn't need to."  He came to kneel next to her. "But you have the answers don't you?" She backed up. "Heero you don't understand.... I’m.... I’m here against my will. Your actions are gonna bring them back and they're going to torture me again..." He swung around as he heard the lock on the door turn. He watched, concerned as Dorothy's eyes widened in fear as 3 men came in and proceeded to unchain her from the wall. “I told you. I told you!" She whispered fiercely. "I'm not done asking questions." Heero said as he stood. The guards pushed past him and grabbed the now struggling Dorothy. "You are for today. It's time for her treatment." She knew she would pay for doing this, but she had to take the chance. "Heero! Heero, they're going to shock me again cause of us talking! I said too much!!! She was pulling against the men holding her arms and dragging her out. She flung her legs wildly to stall for time. "Why?! Why is this happening?!" Heero called out as he started to follow, only to be blocked by another guard. "It's what I know! I'm in here cause of HER!!! I know too much!! Listen to what she's trying to tell you Yuy!!" He could hear her yelling curses down the hall until she was too distant from him. He walked out of the cell, deeply troubled. Something really strange was happening.... But he didn't know how to start to solve it. He walked back to the file clerk. "I need a copy of a patient's file." The old man turned to him. "Name." Was all he stated. "Dorothy Catalonia." He saw the man's back stiffen. "I'm sorry, that file is confidential." Heero scowled. "Why?" The man shrugged. "Don't quite know. All I know is I can't pull up any information. It's blocked." "Hn." Heero replied and left the building. Dorothy was going to suffer, but for what? What did she know? He was in deep thought on the drive to Relena's. Something didn't fit. The hall he had to walk down to get to her cell was the wing where they kept serious criminal offenders, serial killers and such. What did Dorothy do to end up there, and why? Second, Why was her file unavailable? Nothing was ever published about her. As a detective he was permitted to look at confidential files, but not hers. He pulled up to Relena's and walked to the door. Third, How did this tie in with Hilde? Nothing was making sense, how did Dorothy fit? Why was she monitored so closely? He pushed the questions aside as Relena's butler let him in. "Ms. Relena is in the sitting room with Mr. Maxwell." He announced. "Thank you." Heero said politely as he walked to said room. Relena's eyes lit up as he walked in. Heero noticed that Duo was looking better, a good sign of Relena's pampering he was sure. "Hey buddy." Duo greeted as Heero took a seat. He wanted to keep the case away from Duo. He needed to heal. Hearing how so far off the force was at solving this was not going to help. Relena agreed to keep it away from him too, which helped. "So what are you two up to today?" She asked, sipping her tea. Heero shrugged. "Whatever, I guess." He really didn't have anything planned. He just thought he should spend some time with Duo, since he really hadn't had a chance to lately. Plus he could use a break himself. Duo stood and stretched. "Well let's get out of here, before Relena decides I need more rest." She laughed as she swatted him with her napkin. "There's nothing wrong with rest. But, you should get out for a while. Go on you two." She walked them to the door. Heero stopped to talk to Relena as Duo headed for the car. "It's good you came by, Heero. He's done nothing but mope around here. He needs you." Heero nodded. "You've been a great friend to him, Relena, I'm sure he appreciates it." She just nodded and waved them off. Heero stepped into the car and started it. He stole a quick glance at Duo. He wasn't looking as cheerful as he did inside. "So...Where are we going?" Duo asked. Heero shrugged. "Anywhere you want." He gave Heero a pleading look. Heero felt he wasn't going to like where this was headed. "Take me home Heero." He sat puzzled for a moment, the car idling in the driveway...Then it hit him what he meant. "You mean...Yours and…." He cut himself off. Duo's eyes pleaded with him. "Please Heero. I just want to go back, just for a little while." Heero sighed. "I can take you there. But to what purpose?" His voice softened. "She's not there anymore, Duo." Heero regretted his words as Duo burst into tears. "I.... I kn-know." He sobbed. "I just want to go there anyway. Please..." Heero backed out of the driveway. It was true. Duo had stayed at Relena's all this time and not once since he found out about Hilde's murder had anyone let him go back. Maybe he needed this to heal. Whatever Duo's reasons, Heero felt compelled to allow him this. "Don't tell Relena or I'll never hear the end of it." Heero warned as he sped off in the direction of Duo and Hilde's prior home. Duo chuckled and swiped at his eyes. "Neither would I. It's our secret. They arrived within an hour. Duo got out of the car and just stared. It was a small 2-bedroom house, two stories. Small and quaint, that's how she described it. Heero stood behind Duo. "Do you want to go in alone?" Heero asked. Duo shook his head. "No....No I need you there." Heero nodded and put his hand on Duo's shoulder, giving him the support he so needed. Together they walked up the small steps. Duo unlocked the door and let it swing open. They stared down the hallway, illuminated only by the sun's rays behind them. Heero was a bit apprehensive. He had been having dreams about Hilde continuously night after night. He couldn't help but feel an eerie disturbance coming from the house. Duo stepped in and slowly walked down the hall. "It's so dark in here. Let me see if I can find a flashlight." "I have one in the car." Heero called out. "Ok, go get it." Duo called back in the dark. Heero hurried back to the car and opened the glove box. Checking to see if the batteries worked, he quickly walked back up to the door. Duo wasn't in the hallway anymore. "Duo?" Heero called out. Nothing. "Shit." Heero muttered, clicking on the flashlight and slowly creeping through the house. Why was it so dark in here? His eyes scanned the lighted areas, taking in furniture, a pair of shoes, and little knick-knacks. He heard a creek and swung around towards the stairs. "Duo must be up there." He turned back around and dropped his flashlight as Hilde's face startled him. He crouched down, and retrieved his light and pointed back to where it was. He sighed in relief. It was just a picture. "Pull yourself together man, you're losing it." He muttered to himself. It was a pretty recent picture, just a portrait. He smiled as he remembered. It was Quatre's garden party. Hilde had asked him to take a picture of her, because she joked that she never would be that dressed up again. Her hair was adorned with baby's breath, with one peach blossom above her ear to match her sheer peach colored dress. Everyone commented on how lucky Duo was all night. He really was lucky. He shook the memory away and turned away from the picture. Her eyes. They haunted him in a way he couldn't describe. All he knew was they didn't change in his dream. Her eyes pleaded with him, just as they looked in the picture. He walked up the stairs. One of the doors was open. It was Hilde and Duo's bedroom. Duo was sitting on the bed, staring at more pictures, tears streaming down his cheeks. He looked up at Heero. "Hey man, come in." Heero did slowly. Duo had opened the shutters, letting in the soft light of approaching dusk. Heero sat next to him on the bed. "This was mine and Hilde's first Christmas. God she's so beautiful." Duo said to Heero. Heero was concerned about him. "Duo..." He started, but didn't know what to say. Duo shook his head. "It's ok, man. I'm ok. I just…. I miss her ya know?" Heero nodded. "I know." After countless tales and memories, Duo walked over to his drawer. He pulled out a box. "Look Heero. I bought these already. It's a shame I never got to use them." He opened the box and pulled out one gold ring. Heero felt his eyes water. This wasn't fair. Fate was cruel in pulling these two apart. "Where's the other one?" Heero asked. Duo smiled sadly. "Mine didn't fit me, so I had to leave it at the shop. But Hilde's...Hers was perfect." He held it up for Heero to see. It was gold, with vines made in rose gold etched around the center.

He put in Heero's hand. "Hang on to it for me." Heero's head shot up. "What?!" Duo's violet eyes pleaded with him again. "I'm afraid it will get stolen if I leave it and I can't bring it back to Relena's or she'll know we were here. I can trust you with it. Please keep it for me." How could he say no? Duo went through his drawer again and pulled out a chain. "Here." He grabbed the ring and looped it through the gold chain. "Keep it close to you. Maybe it will help you on your case." Heero took it and slipped it around his neck. He felt goose bumps spread across his body. "Why would it help me?" He asked. Duo shrugged. "Look, Heero. I know I’ve been kept away from this whole thing. And I know why and I agree it's probably too much for me to handle right now. But there were no leads, Heero, and you haven't brought anyone to justice. It's not going well.” Heero just nodded. Duo winked. "It's for luck...It will keep her close to you." Heero jumped off the bed. Duo frowned. "What's wrong with you?" Heero felt shaky. "I can't take this..." He took the ring still on the chain and tossed it back to Duo. "It's not right. I can't do it. I'm sorry." Duo caught the ring, but kept his eyes on Heero, who looked like he was about to lose it. "Heero, calm down. I want you to keep it for me. Just until I get back on my own. What's wrong with you?" Heero tried to control himself. He WAS losing it. Duo said offhanded stuff like that all the time... He sighed and caught the ring Duo tossed back at him. "I'm...I'm sorry. I haven't gotten much sleep lately." Duo frowned. "You should get some rest, man, you're working yourself to death." He led Heero out, following the light of the flashlight down the stairs and out of the house. He stopped to stare at it a while, taking it in, before getting in the car. It was a silent drive back to Relena's. Heero pulled up and put the car in park. "Look, Duo, I'm sorry I haven't solved this case yet. I just want you to know that I’m trying -" Duo put his hand up to stop him. "Heero, I know. You're doing all you can. There isn't much to go on. But I know you'll do it. My money's on you buddy, it always has been. Don't be a stranger, ok?" Heero nodded. "And get some sleep, you look like shit." Duo commented as he got out of the car and walked up to the house. Heero drove off, but not home. He didn't want to go to sleep. He knew he wouldn't get any rest anyways. He stopped at a convenience store for another pack of cigarettes. He stood outside and tore open the box, eager for the relaxing buzz he was craving. He stood there and thought of somewhere to go. After about 15 minutes and 3 cigarettes later he headed home. He needed to work. He realized if he ever wanted to sleep or rest and get on with his life, this needed to end. After changing into a pair of sweatpants and brewing a pot of coffee, he sat at the kitchen table with his stacks of files. He opened the one Quatre got on Dorothy. It didn't reveal much, only saying she was admitted almost 2 weeks before Hilde was murdered. No one admitted her, at least no one specified. He closed the file. But she had said she was there against her will. How did the guards know what she was talking about with him? In all the mental facilities he had ever been in, not one room in the entire place had been bugged for sound. Yet as soon as Dorothy began to reveal stuff she was cut off, and probably put through shock treatment again to silence her. How could he get information without being heard? How could he ask the right questions? He would have to visit her again, but not too soon. He needed to come up with something. His fingers played with the gold band dangling from his neck. He was tired. His body screamed for him to sleep. He had to chance it. He couldn't stay awake forever. He cleaned up his mess and walked to his bathroom. After brushing his teeth he crawled into his bed. He eyed the lamp on the nightstand, almost afraid to turn it off. "They're just dreams Heero, get some sleep." He said aloud to comfort his nerves. His hand finally clicked off the lamp and he settled under the covers. It was a long while before sleep took over

 

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